Well i think i'm going to explode! i don't know if i've ever been more stressed before in my life! it was like the moment that i found out that sister stevenson was leaving and i was getting a new companion i've felt such a HUGE responsibility! i almost feel like i'm training a new missionary because sister davis has never been here before and she was where the temple was which is a SUPER small area and Mainz is a LOT bigger area compared to where she was. but sister davis has been out 3 cycles longer than i have - so she knows how to do the work and everything, this area and the people are all new for her.
i've hardly taken a break since last wednesday. there's so much to do and SO much to remember! i don't know how i'm still standing but i almost made it a whole week without losing it. i cried for an hour last night before falling asleep. i feel so overwhelmed. we've had 3 fallen out appointments since saturday and since sister davis doesn't really know everyone yet i feel like i've got all the responsibility. she's great though. she's totally willing to call people and at church she talked to the members and investigators that she already knew. i'm just trying not to overwhelm her with too much right away.
so i'm losing sleep, almost crying over everything and i'm starting to not be very effective. which of course stresses me out more and then the cycle continues. i'm trying really hard to make myself relax but every meal time we get i keep thinking about all the things that need to get done so then i eat quickly and then i'm working working working. and then at the end of the day i'm working working working until it's time to get to bed. AHHHH!!!
Meg: sweetie thanks for the email and i'm glad to know that your surgery went well! i've been thinking about you and hoping that everything went well! nothing that you said offended me at all!!!!! so no worries whatsoever! i love you lots and thanks SO much for emailing me!!!!!!!!!!
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